I Believe in Santa

Many converts or reverts will tell you that there came a moment when they prayed that dangerous and powerful prayer of asking God to reveal Himself if He truly was real. Well, I did not pray that prayer; instead, I thought about Santa Claus. You see, when I was young, I really believed in Santa, and I was very happy when I did. So, I said to myself, “What did you understand then that you don’t understand now?” How could it be that as a grown man with an education, a career, a wife, and so on, I was not able to have the peace of mind and the happiness of soul of a small child? Well, in that moment it hit me that there was something wrong with me that I never considered: I had lost the ability to believe in Santa because I had lost the ability to believe.