As recently as five years ago, I was the world's top-selling New Age author. At the time, I enjoyed a phenomenally lucrative lifestyle. I lived on a 50-acre ranch in Hawaii. My publisher treated me like a rock star, flying me and my husband first class to give sold-out workshops across the globe. We would stay in penthouse suites at swanky hotels and rub elbows with celebrities. Yet despite this worldly success, I was hardly at peace. For all my New Age seeking, there were answers I could never find.